I let the bigger part of 2013 be about letting go of people and refusal to let things go. I let things weigh so heavy that I was unable to see past my disappointments, hurt and understand other perspectives. I let my stubbornness of being right get in the way of one of the most important relationships in my life.
But I realized you wake up every day and you get to choose how you react to things. It could be so easy to lie back and do none of the work it requires to “make it work”. It’s even easier to just proclaim you don’t know how to fix it; plead ignorance to the easiest of solutions to the most temporary of problems. Sometimes your pride blinds you in ways that when you look at yourself in the mirror you don’t recognize who you are anymore. However, I am finding now that nothing is permanent - you just have to be willing to try to change.
So if figuring out what you want out of life is half the battle and the other half is fighting for it … I’m hoping 2014 will be the year I start building towards something good.